You Deserve It All

The revelation hit me out of nowhere. One moment, I was mindlessly scrolling through Instagram, and the next, I was stopped in my tracks by a post of a woman in a stunning, extravagant house. This home was not just any house—it was a sanctuary of beauty, filled with my favorite color, pink, in every corner. The woman exuded pride and appreciation for her surroundings, radiating happiness. I was mesmerized, captivated by the elegance and serenity she lived in.

And then it hit me—why wasn't I the one in that beautiful, pink, serene home? Why wasn't I living that life? I knew deep down that I was deserving of such beautiful luxuries, yet I wasn’t there. Despite being generally happy, this video stirred feelings of inadequacy and longing within me. I began to reflect on my life, realizing that I had been given many opportunities to live a carefree, luxurious life, but I had sabotaged them time and time again.

Why? Because deep in my subconscious, I didn't feel worthy of these luxuries. I would attain them, only to unconsciously do something to mess it up, blatantly refusing the gifts the universe had bestowed upon me, all because I didn’t feel deserving. I recalled having so many luxuries gifted to me, yet the voice in the back of my mind would say, "Nothing good lasts forever," "Easy come, easy go," and "Money doesn't grow on trees." These words, heard at various points in my life, took root in my subconscious mind, causing me to self-sabotage time and again.

Today, as I gazed at this happy, beautiful human in her pink, magical home, every part of my being screamed, "How did I get here?" And then, the answer came to me.

I've been on a journey of awakening to who I truly am—a road of twists and turns, ups and downs, happiness and confusion. I’m still learning to navigate these emotions. The profound epiphany I had today, that I am worthy, exploded within me like a burst of painful joy. It illuminated why I am at this point in my life and showed me that this is not my limit. This is not my final stop. Where I am is beautiful, and because of the choices I’ve made throughout my journey, I now understand and can relate to others who feel the same way.

Now, I choose to uplevel my vibration and embrace all the abundance the universe has to offer because I am deserving. I deserve it all! Only good can come from my desires because this universe is limitless, and I am a limitless being. I choose to prosper in all my interests, fully embracing the boundless opportunities before me.

I decided to make this entry in my journal public because I truly believe it will inspire and spark a flame in others like me. You deserve a beautiful life with an extravagant house and luxury travel, as long as it makes you happy and fulfilled. Nothing is too wonderful to happen, nothing is too good to last, and absolutely nothing is too good to be true, gorgeous human. You are deserving of every joy and every luxury the universe has to offer. Embrace it, for you are worthy.